Health
A lot of things in life are relative: wealth is relative. To someone making $40k, $80k is a lot of money. For the $80k'er, $100k is a lot of money. Health is one of those things that is relative. I've had my share of enigmatic issues. One doctor described it as the "gray zone" of autoimmune disorders; subclinical symptoms that exist just enough to interfere with daily life, but not so pronounced as to be given a definitive diagnosis. This has been easy for me to focus on. I'd have a pity party for myself because my exercise tolerance wasn't where I wanted it to be, I couldn't do the activities that I wanted to do. On any given day I wasn't sure how much bloating I would experience, so I have to keep 2 different pant sizes in my closet. One week a bigger size fit, and then the next the bloating was gone and I could pull those pants on and off without unzipping them.
But this week, I awoke one morning in excruciating pain from my back, neck and shoulder. I cried out in pain trying to get out of bed. I wasn't sure how I was going to use the restroom nor shower. I'd never experienced anything like it. The whole day was spent trying to find some relief from this pain. I couldn't drive, couldn't lay down, could barely sit. It took morphine to finally take the edge off the pain, and I returned home finally at 9 at night. It was in the midst of of all that pain that I realized health is on a continuum, and that most days, I'm a healthy girl. Can I run a marathon, or even run with ease? Not really. But can I run? Yes. As well as I wish? No. But I have health good enough to engage in life and attempt the things I want to do. I may feel embarrassment over my limitations where endurance is concerned, but I can engage in life! How great for me! So many people would love to have the level of health that I have, and mine is not perfect.
Today, I'm thankful to be blessed with health that allows me to do the things in life that I want, that allows me to engage in life. I have been blessed with good health, and I don't want to take that for granted.
But this week, I awoke one morning in excruciating pain from my back, neck and shoulder. I cried out in pain trying to get out of bed. I wasn't sure how I was going to use the restroom nor shower. I'd never experienced anything like it. The whole day was spent trying to find some relief from this pain. I couldn't drive, couldn't lay down, could barely sit. It took morphine to finally take the edge off the pain, and I returned home finally at 9 at night. It was in the midst of of all that pain that I realized health is on a continuum, and that most days, I'm a healthy girl. Can I run a marathon, or even run with ease? Not really. But can I run? Yes. As well as I wish? No. But I have health good enough to engage in life and attempt the things I want to do. I may feel embarrassment over my limitations where endurance is concerned, but I can engage in life! How great for me! So many people would love to have the level of health that I have, and mine is not perfect.
Today, I'm thankful to be blessed with health that allows me to do the things in life that I want, that allows me to engage in life. I have been blessed with good health, and I don't want to take that for granted.
posted by PJ | 4:34 PM
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